*Hello, I hurt myself in the past, just for the fact I was unperfect, ugly, stupid and all of the things were my fault. I still have some scars because of that, and honestly... I keep doing it, sometimes.
*Hello, I also put myself in horrible situations, like... I was almost thirty pounds under my normal weight, and I spend a not short time in hospital for that.
*Hello, I have to tell you... everytime we go out for eating, the only thing I want is come back home so I can throw up and feel okay with myself.
*Hello, everytime I have a fight, you believe it or not, I think it's my fault, so I have this obsession of hurting myself to feel better. And I know how to do it, so it hurts, but no one notice it.
*Hello, everytime you say something like "beautiful" to me, I feel like you're joking and laughing at me. I think every nice word it's a huge lie.
*Hello, I don't like it when you look at me, I feel like you're watching how unperfect I am, and you're hoping I was prettier.
*Hello, I hate when you ask me to go to your home or somewhere with your friends, I hate it because I feel so observed, like every one will talk about how ugly I am.
*Hello, I'm not much for crying, but sometimes I do it just for the fact I looked myself in the mirror
*Hello, these were words that I don't dare to tell to you, because I'm weak... And all I want from you is your LOVE, not your PITY.
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